suka suki suko suke :D

okay!
sem baru da bermule!
jadi nyer, byk la azam baru aku kali ni!
muahahaha!
ye la sangat.
x buat pon azam baru sbenar nyer tp aku bharap aku dpt cope dengan sabjek2 sem ni sbb teramat la bz nnt okay.
aku sudah mule cuak walaupon baru 1st week.
hadoih la makjah. -_-;;
pape pon, kite kena bersemangat!
tp baru 1st week ni pon da macam2 aku tringin.
nak kasot baru la, baju baru la, gelang baru la.
duit x masok pon lagi.
hua3.
tambah lagi membe aku kat korea nak bli kan tshirt muse yg tour die tuh sbb muse dtg korea jan ni.
weehoo!
arap2 dapat sign matt bellamy skali! :D
yun, jgn jelez~ ;D

1st week ni pon zaf da ajak mkn2 kat lua which aku sgt suke!
dpt la jugak tgk dunie lua kat gombak tuh.
kalo x tperap je dalam uia tu haa.
x sonok langsong! hmph! X(
pape pon, time kaseh zaf n mar yg slalu ajak! :D

AND!
berita yang paling best skali!
4 minggu bturut2 jumaat cuti beb!
hahaha, sonok dpt balek uma.
tp of coz la akan ade 1 mggu aku x balek gak sbb nk buat pojek.
almaklumlah kan, pojek da start da pon. :)
mggu ni g karok dgn budak2 tikl dulu, mggu dpan ade bro dari US dulu nak kawen so WAJIB pergi sbb nak jumpe balek abang2 n kakak2 n makcik2 n pakcik2 kat US dulu!
argh! rindu gile mreka!
da la sume anak da baru la hape.
dulu tgk bujang keding aje.
huhu.
can't wait!

okay, itu shj utk kali ini.
sbenar nyer ade post laen tp tgh dlm proses meng-edit2 sbb post lpas ni agak sronok utk dbace make aku pon nk edit baik2.
heee :D

iqbal

selamat pagi sume!
ye, arini aku bangon awal!
lepas suboh x tdo kot!
*bangge jap dgn diri*

kali ni post ni dedicate kat adik aku yg last skali yg bname iqbal a.k.a ibai.
arini result upsr die kua.
sbb tu la aku bangon awal.
kalo x, hampeh.
huhuhuhu.
anyway, mak kat sabah and bina je ade kat uma.
that means uma bsepah gile kot!
adek pompuan aku yang sorg ni bukan nyer gheti nak tlg kemas uma.
kaen btimbon! saje tggu aku balek uma and aku yg kena lipatkan.
haih, tension.
jap g ni kena la vacuum dulu sbelom kua g skola ibai.
kalo x mak balek mesti marah gile.
T_T

so, pas suboh td tros la aku g lipat kaen kan.
*ehem, rajin r konon*
sambil2 lipat tu tringat la satu cite mak pnah cte mase balek uma sbelom exam ess tuh.

mase tu, aku tengah la lipat 1 boxer ni.
aku tkjot dgn saiz die.
nak kate afiq nyer, die xde kat uma.
nak kate abah nyer, kecik sgt. tp mungkin abah da kurus sket kot.
so, aku boh la kat pile baju abah.
pastu mak dtg tlg lipat kaen skali.
borak2 sket, pastu mak pon amek 1 boxer lagi tok dilipat.
ttbe mak bukak cite.

"tau x skang ibai da pakai boxer?! da la pegi shopping boxer dengan afiq."
"haaaaa???? mak bia btol?! sjak bile?! dulu spender pon xnk pakai! hahaha! da la shopping dengan afiq! pelik gile situasi!"

kekekekekekeke, aku gelak cam nenek kebayan kjap mase tuh.
mak pon join skali.
haha :D

bile aku piki2 balek.
ibai nak amek result upsr arini, bsar nye da adek aku sorang ni.
ibai da reti pakai boxer, bsar nyer da adek aku sorang ni.
pastu bile aku cakap bo kem salam kat die, nak tsipu2 malu plak.
macam die ade can je dengan bo.
hohoho.

rase nyer macam baru smalam aku tuka kan lampin die. ;D

saya tension sangat.

ok, di sini terdapat beberape perkara yang membuat aku tension.

1. bile orang x percaya aku xde boyfriend. ok, aku nak buat statement hangat di sini.
"aku xde boyfriend"
aku bukan nak marah ke pe tp kekadang tkilan laa bile org ckp aku tlalu memilih, nape aku xde boyfriend walhal aku ni baek, yada yada yada. jangan salah paham, aku bukan kutuk or marah or ape2 ni tau. just cam pnat jawab. huhu. ye, aku memilih tp nak buat camne. itu mmg lumrah. dan aku ni xla sebaek yang korg sangke. aku kutuk org jugak. aku gosip gak. aku buat jahat gak. hmm, tggu la satu ari nnt ade lelaki yg bukan taste aku akan bukak mate aku sket. cume skang ni sume laki cam h*r*m. hohoho.

2. bile aku plan something, mesti x menjadik. i mean, at least kalo korang jawab everytime aku tanye tu aku bole consider lagi. xde la sepanas ni ati aku. aku da la cube nak mnyayangi sume org. itam sangat da ati aku ni. tolong la bile aku tanye tu, jangan buat bodoh then g cakap2 ngan membe ko plak. tolong la jangan tinggal kan aku hangging tanpe jwpn then LAST MINUTE baru nak bitau. serious aku BENCI. xkn la x paham2 lagi aku ni camne. oh, sebab aku baek ngan korang, bole korang pijak kepala aku camni?! tp bile aku tkasar bahasa siket laa ape tros label aku jahat. aku jadik camni sebab korang jugak okay! aku xnak jadik hipokrit yang senyum je stiap kali korang saket kan ati aku. think of other people jugak la. bukan korg je manusia yang penting atas bumi ni. xbole ke korang tolong menjadi kan plan aku skali skale?! bukan susah pon. datang je la. bukan aku suruh korang blanje pown. bukan aku suruh korg tlg organize. it's just a matter of answering 'yes' or 'no'. it's not that hard kan?!

3. bile kacang lupe kan kulit. serious agak macam haram jadah r klo tibe2 ko da hot n femes ke pe, tros ko lupe kawan2 lame yg da stay by ko slame beberape taon ni dan tros replace ngan kawan baru yang ko baru kenal beberape bulan je. atau ko ade minat baru tros ko xnak lepak ngan org yg xde minat same kan. like hello! hobbies doesn't separate friendship la dol!! aku xnak la point kan kat sape2 tp kalo tmkn cili trase la pedas nyer.

4. aku x suke dgn diri sendiri. aku da banyak berubah atas beberape perkara. aku da x ayu. aku da mule obsess dgn diri sendiri. aku da mule mnunjukkan aurat2. aku da mule xtau malu. ye, faktor2 ini telah terjadi kepada diri ku. knape aku camni?! knape aku da mule xle control diri?! kawan2, jangan gusar. ni bukan masalah anda. ni masalah dgn diri sendiri kay. jangan korang lari dr aku plak. aku cume mengalami kematangan diri yang melampau. kawan2, aku bharap agar stiap kali bende2 di atas ni terjadik kat aku, sile tegor. jangan biarkan aku lalai. aku nak brubah. sile tolong kay. time kasih. :)

be ok

i just wanna be ok, be ok, be ok
i just wanna be ok today

i just wanna feel the day, feel the day, feel the day
i just wanna feel the day today

ni adalah terbitan lirik lagu ingrid michealson 'be ok' yang menerangkan perasaan aku sekarang.
dan mungkin juge budak2 archy yang laen.

ye, kami dalam keadaan yang sangat tertekan sekarang.
walopon submission da lepas(snin aitu), tapi stelah bod2 kami dipulangkan, terdapat pule kerja2 touch up, buat model, buat schematic diagram dan juge workbook.
selain drpd itu, dalam sminggu ni, ade 4 presentation yang perlu kami bentangkan.
dem.
1- studio presentation (27th)
2- ess presentation (29th)
3- bcm presenation (30th)
4- leadership presentation (31th)

mreka ingt kami ni ape?!
robot?! superman?! wonderwoman?!
like hello!
tolong la sedar siket bahawa kami perlukan rehat juge ok!
jangan la bagi keje btalu2 camni.
Tuhan marah kalo kite abuse bdn kite camni.
aku tau aku x bape alim tp stakat ni aku mmg tau Tuhan kate kite perlu kan rehat yang secukup nye.

mmg la lect da anjak kan ape sume tu tp pikir la sket, nak bagi keje presentation ke ape, tolong la jangan banyak sangat karenah.
mintak macam2.
pastu bile x siap mule la marah sane sini.
kami sedar batch kami dibenci.
lect2 x perlu risau pasal tu.

kadang2 aku tepiki, lect buat kite mcm ni knape?!
sbb time dorg blaja dulu dorg pown kena terok camni ke?!
btol kah?!
aduhh.
mmg sempit la pemikiran kalo begitu.

ye, mungkin korang akan cakap, 'da tau archy susah nape amek?!'
dun wori, aku pown slalu tny diri aku soklan tu.
1- paren aku mmg teringin nak aku jadi akitek
2- aku xde hale tuju dlm hidop n akitek la kos yang paling dkat dgn gred spm aku slaen civil

haih, ttibe jadik post emo plak.
padahal nak cite pasal bende len.
haha.

ok, ini cite sbenar.


setelah mendapat kebebasan, kami telah berjoli di times square slase lpas.
mmg x plan langsong.
bo mai lisott paan da plan la tapi.
dorg nak p tengok cte seram ape ntah.
tp ttbe aku tdengar bo kate die nak tengok papadom.
ape lagi, aku join r!

memula aku telah ditipu oleh cik farah nasiha pasal cite papadom tuh.
ade ke patot die tanye camni,
'bella, ko nak g tgk papadom x? ko mesti suke kan cite2 tamil camni.'
aku pown sperti biase tertipu la kan.
haih.

setelah sampai kat times, tros begegas ke tiket kaunter nak bli tiket sambil2 window shopping sket2.
da bli tiket pe sume tu, ktorg pown bjalan la konon nak g makan aiskirim gelato kesukaan bo dan paan.
tengok jam, 'ok, kol 4.30 kan cite tuh? skang baru 3.30'
rupe2 nyer mase tu da mmg da pukol 4.30
seb bek mai tenung lame2 sket jam die tuh.
huhu.

sesudah papadom, kami g makan kenny rogers!
huu, lame mngidam!
puas laa jugak.
pastu tejumpa laa kapel yang kami knal ni.
hohoho. kantoi. ^^

lantas selepas makan, bo ngan paan ape lagi kan.
pergi ke 'syurga' mereka la.
times tingkat 5 tu.
huih, x pna aku tgk dorg camtu.
kaki cpat je mlangkah.
mate fix kat sume kedai yang ade.
1 kedai pown x ble miss.
power r skill shopping dorg ni!
huhu.

TP!
yang paling best skali!
aku ngan yaa da bli tiket tok mnonton Micheal Jackson This Is It!!!
31 aribulan nnt!! ^o^
tp, presentation leadership ari yang same.
hopefully sempat!!
amin.

maap la kali ni aku bcrite dgn pnoh 'smangat' n korang kompem xkn bosan membace.
ni skadar nak update je.
hohoho.
i'm out~

T_T

13 oct 09 10.06 pm

bella: aku malas.

moon: aku malas gak....

yaa: aku pon malas giler...

geram.

omaigod!
stelah aku pulang ke rumah pade ari sabtu lpas, mak cakap baju raye da siap tp tailor tu buat x cantek.
dr segi potongan ape sume cantek da.
tp dr segi die susun kaen tu mengikot kale tu sungguh mengecewakan!!!
ade ke ptot baju blah dpan da merah, dkat tpi tu tibe2 purple caer n tmpt kat ketiak tu kale biru???!!
(ye, aku highlight kan tulisan ni mengikot kale baju aku. cube korang bayang kan betape burok nye baju aku itu.)
i mean, wth man!
baju aku cam da jadik kaen burok yang ko cantom sesuka hati je!!
kaen mak aku beli tu bukan calang2 kaen dong!!
mahal nyer x tkire sbb ingat raye kali ni bole la kaen special sket.
argh!
omaigod3!!!
aku xtau nak express kan camne kmarahan aku ni.
seb baek bulan ramadhan, aku sabar sket.
dgn bfikiran waras, mak aku nak p mintak balek kaen extra n nak anta kat tailor mane2 yg bole alter kan.
hopefully bole alter la sbb kaen nyer cam agak fragile.
chiffon ke hape x salah aku.
alaa, kaen yg kena lining la kesimpulan nyer.
kaen2 yg kena lining ni bukan nyer kental sangat.
mmg fragile kot.
omaigod3!
spanjang raye ni aku x bole angkat tangan la.
kalo x nampak burok la tibe2 tang ketiak kale biru terang.
hoh, tringat iklan deodorant yg pompuan tu xle angkat tgn sbb ketiak die itam.

oh man.
aku sgt frust skarang. :(

sahur dan mimpi lagi

hey kawan2!
di sini nak cite sket la kan tentang diri yang kurang hebat memasak ni.
pada pagi ahad yang indah, aku bangun pukol 4.15 pagi!
semate2 nak tolong mak masak!
haha, anak mithali tak?! :p
ye la, kesian kat mak yg usia da mjangkau 50 kena masak tok ktorg yg berumur 20 tahun ni.
make, dengan hati yang suci (eceh :p) aku pon bangun la.
mak nak masak nasi lemak pagi ni.
uh-oh.
aku x reti haprak pon. :(
aku pon buat2 la busy ngan tanye mak, "nak buat ape ni?"
padahal tahu nak buat nasi lemak and satu haprak pon x gerak lagi.
aku pon sperti bese pegi potong bawang dulu.
ajaib nyer, mate yg sparoh segar ngan sparoh ngantok tu xde effect langsong bile potong bawang.
pasni kalo mak suroh potong bawang nak tido dulu la. hehe.

ok, bebalik kepada cerita.
da setel bawang merah, bawang putih dan halia, ktorg begerak ke dapur gas.
nasi mak da buat siap2 so xtau camne resepi nyer. adeh.
make, dengan langkah bijak, aku nyale kan api dapur dan buboh minyak ala kadar je.
alaa, scukup rase la kan.
tunggu punye tunggu, masok la bawang yang da potong2 tadik.
pissshhh!!!! mlonnjak2 minyak naek tangan aku.
takpe, aku kebal kan.
da abes tumis tu, masok la cili.
1 sudu, 2 sudu, 3 sudu.
aish, da banyak sangat ni.
mak datang tengok dan tambah lagi 1 sudu.
erk, cirit birit la aku pagi ni. -_-;;
mak pegi perah asam jawa dan masok kan air die n ikan bilis skali.
aku tukang kacau je la kan. :p
pung pang, pung pang.
siap sambal bella!
haha, dengan hati yang bangge pegi la kejot satu family bangun makan.
ye la, hasil kite kan. :p

bile da makan tu........ oh!
sedap plak! :p


ok, tadik tu cite sahur.
skarang nak cite mimpi plak.
sbelom aku bangun pukol 4.15 tuh, aku ade mimpi.
tak tau nak cakap mimpi ngeri ato pon best.
ni mimpi sambungan.
sambunagn dari mane?!
sambungan dari mimpi aku kawen lari2 kat hotel tuh.
geng anak bapak, korang mesti ingat sape tuan empunye badan yang datang meminang aku tuh.
hak3.
ok, moving on.

kali ni 'org tu' datang uma aku plak.
tujuan: unknown
so, aku pon lepak2 la kan kat uma pe sume.
pastu bile die datang, cube teka die nak jumpe sape?!
kakak aku!
hahaha, aku tgelak la kejap kan.
tp dalam sedar tak tau la kan.
entah2 aku tgelak btol2.
mesti adik aku piki aku gile gelak dalam tido.
seterusnyer, 'org tu' ajak akak aku pegi dating tau.
ok, gelak da makin bertambah.
dan yang mbuatkan aku 'mengilai', die pegi dating tempat yang same aku pegi dating dengan 'faceless-dude'.
pastu, pegi mane2 je mesti die ikot pegi skali.
hati dan firasat aku mngatekan bahawa 'org tu' nak jelez kan aku supaya aku accept minangan die dulu.
hahahahahahaha!!
tapi kite mesti ingat kawan2, ini hanya lah mimpi. :D

ok, nak sambung buat keje!
haha, bajet je :p

my eventful life

hey peeps!
haha, been on a hiatus for almost 2 months now.
but no worries!!
i'm back now my fans!
huhu ;p

anyways, for the past two months, a lot has happened to me.
1. penang trip
2. kaedlive

eh wait, that's only 2 events.
nape aku bz sgt ek?!
haha.

anyway, our studio went to penang for a 'study trip' on disabled people. eventhough the task was done at the very last minute, i had fun! unfortunately! we missed our ride back to kl on monday morning. 7am to be exact. very stressed and sad at that time but what can i do but cry right? :p everything was solved when we bought another ticket at 9m. there's so much time to kill so a bunch of us decided to go shopping. well, u can't really call it shopping but whatever la kan. we ate mcd and watched ghost of girlfriend's past which is quite funny la. not bad. huhu. here are a few pics along the way :)


haha, ok.
da malas nak upload banyak2 (padahal baru 3 je.. :p)

now, i'm moving to kaedlive!
the eventful event of my life!
after months of planning and crying and fighting, that night was super duper incredible!!
amazing performances by liyana(estrella), algebra and super pot amir!!
not forgetting drone squad!
memang smart la menari kan!
if you guys spotted me that night, i was dancing along with them.
seriously! :D
eventhough some people are not satisfied with it, i am!
it's like watching your kids grow up la gitu.
huhu.
i don't have the pictures with me but you are invited to look at it at my facebook!
just holla my name yo! :p

saya sayang SEGI

after 2 months of pure torture, multi-dip has finally come to an end! :D
we were living at kaed literally and it has brought me disasters in many ways.
but.
it's a semester that i'm never gonna forget coz my group won 1st place!!
it was worth the torture! X)

here are a few pics of us.
enjoy! :)

facebook pics

time flies

waduh!
knape cepat sangat mase blalu ni?!
lagi 2 minggu je kite da abes da short sem ni.
truthfully said, mmg aku nak cepat abes sem ni, tp bile da nak dekat abes ni, tibe2 rase cam akan rindu environment opis ni.
huu.
aku da stuck with the way things are.
sem dpan da mule balek project sorang2.
ye, aku memang suke keje bkumpulan sbenar nyer.
lagi best dan banyak ber-interaksi dan macam2 lagi laa! X)
idea pown bole mencurah2 memandangkan aku punyer otak ni bukan la geliga sangat kan. T_T
anyway, good luck kawan2 sume!
jom kite tengok sape menang multi-dip kali ni! :)

khas buat nik :)

1)Copy award di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda

2)Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang pemberi award ini
-kami mempunyai tarikh lahir yang same! :D
-die ni sgt comel n bulu mate die sgt lebat. jelez T_T
-sgt kreatip weh!! serious!!
-sgt pandai bajet mase walopown byk gile xtvt yg involve. hbat! d(^_^)b
-suke remind aku jgn kapel. time kaseh nik :)

3)Setiap blogger perlu menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya.
-bulu mate aku sbenar nyer panjang cume x lentik je. x ramai pasan.
-tlinge kanan aku tsangat la sensitip weh! kalo dengar lagu sbelah kanan je, macam ade org tgh gletek satu badan! XD plik ke x plik tuh?!
-aku sbenar nyer adalah seorang fashion victim, believe it or not T_T
-bile aku cakap aku gemok ato berat, sile pcaye.
-aku sangat suke cekelat :D
-tlg jgn pggl aku pendek. aku sbenar nyer petite k?
-aku x suke bile org call. sile msg je ek ;p
-slipar merah aku dari cfs maseh btakhta lagi di dpan bilik aku :) [ajaa mesti bgge ngan aku ;p]
-aku kalo pegi shopping, bli bratos2 skali gus tp kalo 'puasa' dr shopping, sbulan due bulan pown bole! :D
-aku cpat suke org tp x cepat nak jatuh cinte. haha, mrapu gile. ;p tp serious, lame da jantong aku ni x bdegop dgn kencang nyer. =/

4)anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award seterusnya dan describe tentang mereka
-haha, rase2 nyer sume cam da di tag. sape2 rase nak buat sile la~ :)

got to place to go

my current song addiction sung by gabriella cilmi :)

but.....
my life if heading that way now.
i've got no shoulder to cry on.
i've got no one to trust anymore.
no, that's not right.
i can't trust anybody anymore.
wait, it's the same thing, no?!

i feel like when i give people gold, they repay me with shit.
have i been giving people shit before this without knowing it?! =/

sorry for cursing ajaa.
but i've reached my limit. T_T

emotions pouring...

aku ade keje nak kena buat tp aku tgh emosi bile tepiki pasal 'bende2' ni.
ape salah aku?!
ok, aku tau aku mmg besalah, tp nape hubungan si A ngan si B maseh elok sedangkn hubungan si A dgn aku si org tgh ni ttibe cam da goyah?!
mengape?!
aku rase aku mmg bongok bile dok tpiki pasal bende ni tp bile si B slalu sgt cte die contact and cakap2 sperti bese ngan si A, aku rase bengang ade, sedih pown ade.
aku rase da lbih 3 ari kami x bcakap.
da bdose da ni.
Ya Allah, maafkan la aku. T_T
aku buntu bile sampai bab2 nak pujok org ni.
haih =_=;;

sok crit.
group aku last skali.
kol 3 beb!
adoyai!
haih, nak cite pe lagi pasal sem ni?!
xde mnarik sgt tp xde la bosan sgt.
groupmate aku sume best.
alhamdulillah :)

tolong jgn sbot segi college ato kale cam standard charted yep! pnat dgr T_T

mistakes were made repeatedly

things got pretty bad for me really fast.
i was quitting this whole mumbo jumbo remember?!
but why is it back to haunt me?!
i'm frozen in place now.
i don't know what to do.
i have made things worse.
my friendship is in jeopardy.
can i take this gamble of life and lose more than one best friend?!
haih, this 'band-aid' theory is making me bleed more instead of healing quickly.


i wish i could turn back time.


God, please help me.

there's a first time for everything

ok, post kali ni xde kna mengena ngan tajok sangat.
huhu.
just nak cite.
smalam aku kua.
time nak naek bas tu aku da rase laen macam da ngan badan aku.
aku pown buat bodoh laa.
da jalan punye jalan, dalam kol 3/4 ptg gtu aku da mule rase lemah gile.
tgk muvi 'angels&demons'.
cam nak tdo je ngan bsilmut2 skali.
mmg x larat. :(
balek uia ade la dalam kol 6.
tros tido sampai 8.30 dalam keadaan bslimut dan kipas d 2.
nak kebah kan diri punyer pasal.
mlm tu nak g opis kol 9.30.
aku try bangon, kpale aku bpusing2 dan bpinar2.
aku baring la balek tok 5 menet konon nyer.
bangon2 da kol 9.30.
nak try bangon g toilet, hanye Tuhan saje yg tau prasaan aku mase tuh.
da la pning tahap maksima.
bdenyut mate weh! (mungkin nad paham prasaan ni)

pagi tadi aku bangon, alhamdulillah da kurang.
pning da dtahap paling minima, dmam ade la sket2 lagik.
aku xmo mkn ubat sbb xrti sgt makan pil nih! T_T
make dengan ati yang x brape berat, aku bgerak la ke opis. =]

ksimpulan nyer, jangan blagak jika anda da staon x dmam ato saket dalam jenis ape pown.
nnt jadik cam aku.
huhuhu.

tp!
yg best nyer, smalam aku bjaye bli satu baju yg x ktat pade arge yg sangat murah!
smalam sale sampai 70% kat isetan.
wee~!!! XD

sem baru, plan baru?!

hahaha, slepas 2 sem dok kat uia neh, smalam la baru 1st time aku g usha female sports centre dan court2 yang ade kliling uia neh.
haha.
bengong ke x aku ni?! X)
yg paling aku suke tgk adalah swimming pool die!!!!
bsar dan best sangat2 dowh!!!
sayang nyer kena pakai swimming cap!
ah!
nak carik cpat!
baju da bawak!
torture gile.
nak gile2 swimming ni!
bape taun ntah da tinggal kan.
huhu.

bukan itu sahaja.
kitorang plan macam2 nak maen sat lagi ni.
kayak la.
badminton la.
archery la.
ooh!!! suke sangat2 pada archery gak!
tp xde membe yg ade minat yg same. T_T
kesimpulan nyer, short sem ni kami sangat la bsemangat nak bsukan.
xtau nape.
padahal smalam maen badminton baru 20 menet da pancit.
hahahahah! XD
jom kawan2!
kite mngamalkn idop yang sehat sem ni! :D

hati aku dirobek bagaikan kertas tisu

hmm, i'm not sure how i'm supposed to portray what i'm feeling right now.
i feel discouraged.
i feel dejected.
i feel useless.
i feel............
well, what matters is that i felt like quitting this mumbo-jumbo.
hopefully i get through this change quick and painless like a band-aid.
pray for me! T_T

T_T

alhamdulillah is all i can say when i found my mom's necklace just now!
ah, the bliss~!!!
thanks to those that pray for me! :D


but there's another bad news today.
this thing has been happening a lot now.
to my ipod nonetheless.
my baby.
my soul.
my partner.
everytime i tried to plug in the ipod to my laptop, it would not detect it at all. :(
and when it does, a message saying, 'your ipod is corrupted' was flashed in front of my eyes.
wtf?!
my ipod is in a good condition.
it can still play all the songs and the vids.
damn ipod, what happened to you?!
so, everytime i have to charge or put it some more songs, i have to reset it first. :(
note that reset is not deleting everything in the ipod.
more like a boot or some sort.
ah, x rti nak ckp.
anyway, my sister recommends me to restore (deleting everything) it.
i mean, some of the songs and vids are not even in my laptop anymore.
xnk la download balek.
argh!!
what should i do?! :((

oh.my.god!

oh.my.god #1

hah!
the day of QTI has finally come to grace me with its presence.
doubling my nervousness, result of sem 2 08/09 is going to be out today after 5pm!
i woke up at 8.30am this morning.
my heart was thumping and gendang-ing like it's going to burst.
it must stop. seriously.

around 11.15, en hamid came to pick me up and run through the road with me twice to get my mind freshen up.
i was ready and confident by then coz en hamid helped me less this time.
little did i know...
jeng3...

a white kancil plated BJY 659 parked in front of the office and was waiting for me.
i went inside and adjusted my chair yada3 while waiting for the dude to go into the office.
and my journey begins..........................................!

disaster no #1
at the exit of the centre, i was about to go when the car suddenly lurched backward when my gear was at 1.
i don't know why.
and it died instantly.
damn.

disaster no #2
for qti, we have only 1 round-about to test.
so, i was quite confident when i had passed it.
suddenly, the examiner said, 'awak buat jalan ni cam awak punye je kan?!'
i was like, what the hell?!
i asked him what was wrong with what i did?!
he replied, 'signal ke hape x kasik langsong.'
my eyes went as round as nad's eyes when she was 'drowning' at pangkor. (inside joke :p)
i was madly apologizing to him and he was like, 'it's ok2.'
so, since i was the last to test, he asked me to take a short cut coz he's tired.
and i was dancing inside since the short cut is really short.
huhu.

disaster #3
at the U-turn aka the short cut, i was grinning to myself and what not.
while slowing the car down, i looked on the other side.
a car was about to pass so i pushed the break to stop the car altogether.
and guess what the disaster is?!
i pushed the gas paddle!!!!!!!!
the car went zooming to the front but luckily my hands were quick to turn the sterring(is this how you spell it?) and foot changed to the break paddle.
the examiner was mad.
freaking mad.
and i was freaking out!
the car died, the front tire hit a divider.
i was seriously about to cry back then.
i plucked up my courage and re-started the car and drove off.
the ride back was unpleasant since he was saying bad stuff.
i know i'm not a good driver and stuff.
haih.
but on the way back, nothing bad happened so that was a plus i guess. =/

lucky me, he said, 'saye pass kan awak ni so awak tambah klas and testing ngan en hamid lagi ek. saye tutop sbelah mate je pass kan awak ni.'
i was seriously grateful to the dude.
seriously.
thank you dude and thank you God for stopping my car in time before anything bad happens.

oh.my.god #2

some of you are going to be shocked to death by this.
be prepared.
are you prepared?!
alright.

i lost my necklace.
yes, the gold necklace with diamond fruit aka buah permata aka diamond locket(is it a locket? =/)
i was freaking out until now!
yesterday, when i went to klcc and times with farah and kayan, i noticed that it was gone.
i was panicking big time.
i mean, it was my mom's wedding necklace.
a lot of memories in it!
we traced back our steps when farah told me, 'aku xnmpk pown ko pakai rantai time smayang td'.
so, i was a bit confused.
while recalling the memories of the last time i saw my necklace, i called ibai(my youngest bro) to check my bed.
in case it's there.
the result is nada. :(
so i called my mom saying that i'll be home late trying to track back the necklace.
she said, 'if it's lost there, there's no way you'll be able to find it. someone must have taken it by then. lagipon, mak da lame x nampak nabilah pakai rantai. rantai mane satu ni?!'
memories was recollected.
i also haven't seen or touched that necklace for a long time.
if you might not have known, i love to play the necklace.
and lately, i haven't done that.
i went home last night and did a thorough check on my bed, under the bed and anywhere possible.
it is yet to be found.
please, pray that i found that necklace soon guys!
it really means a lot to me. T_T

same thing happened at kaed during yaa's bday when the necklace was hanging loosely at my neck and the fruit(buah) was missing.
with the help of nad, yaa, kak wa, dol, bro shauqee and bro fern, we found it.
thank you for that guys!

jom doa same2 kawan..... :(

boredom has got me in it's hands...

damn, i'm seriously bored now.
da banyak kali bace da komik2 in my laptop.
as for videos, i didn't have the mood.
why oh why?!
T_T

td tgh tgk spongebob ngan mak.
cte tu je la yg buat mak tgelak gile2 slaen friends.
aku pown tgelak skali.
huhu.

td tgk iklan spongebob.
sok pagi kol 10 pagi ade episod baru.
ade johnny depp.
pergh, gile nak tgk!
ibai pown excited.
ttbe ade soklan mengejot kua,
"nak ibai kejotkan ke?!"
ces!!!!
gile mnusuk dalam lubuk ku!!!
tau la aku slalu bangon lambat.
da tbiase maa.
hahaha.
x sangke adek aku sendiri pown paham condition aku.
time kaseh ibai sbb nak kjot kn nabilah X)

loser with a capital L

yup, it happened again today.
my driving totally SUCKED!! X(
i don't know what's happening to me lately.
my mood keeps going down everyday.
i'm still bored as hell.
haih.
i failed bukit for the first round.
but the rounds after that was excellent.
then, en hamid asked me to go on the road.
as usual, i was pretty confident coz i know the road and where to stop, when to change the gear, you know those stuff.
BUT!
that was all coz en hamid was there to direct me and everything.
what's worse, my car died on the road, in the middle of the round-about.
omg! i was freaking out and it died the 2nd time.
en hamid was like, 'nabilah cpat idop kn enjin' and asking me to hurry up.
that makes me more nervous when people asked you to rush and everything.
yeah, i know it's dangerous but don't make me a nervous wreck!!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
i was about to cry back then.
luckily we got back to the training centre in one piece.
then suddenly, en hamid said my QTI will be this tuesday!!
i am not ready!
hell no!
i mean, bukit, parking and 3-pointer is ok for me but road test?!
and the reason i HAD to take it this tuesday is because i don't have much time.
i agree.
but if i fail the QTI, what's the purpose of taking it right?!
tambah mase jugak nnt.
haih, i think i'm gonna die. T_T
guys, help me!!!
hua!!!
da la the only manual car that my family have is being used by my sister AND she's having her finals now.
damn it!
ingat bole testing2 sendiri.
goodbye guys.
see you when i see you. :(

signing out,
Loser

thank you mtv and channel v!

due to great boredom this hols, i was still quite happy with it so far.
can you guess from the title?! :D
i keep on asking you guys to guess, though.
sorry about that. -_-;;

anyway, the reason i'm totally not THAT bored is because mtv and channel v is soooo smart nowadays and have been airing korean and japanese video clips!!!!
aah, the consent~ X)
not only they're airing it, the songs are quite updated!
well, it's a music channel.
what do i expect?!!
they have various artists that i know i loooove so deeply. ;p
SHINee, DSBK, Super Junior, and many more!
as for japanese, the artists are not very familiar to me but the songs are great!

NAD!! MAR!! GET YOUR BUTT UP AND WAIT FOR THESE AMAZING SONGS IN FRONT OF THE TV!!!
MUAHAHAHAHA!! X)
jangan cakap korang suke lagu tu lepas sbulan aku da rekemen ok?! ;)

this brings back sooo much memories! X)

i seriously like this song.
and i don't know why.
listen to it ya!
enjoy! ;)

press play! :D

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

miss sucks-a-lot

damn, the title made my face turn red all over again.
you want to know why?!
let's embark on my journey of humiliation...........

on monday morning, bella woke up at 8 am and was getting ready for her driving class at 9 am.
around 8.30-ish, the instructor messaged her saying, 'nabila, saye lambat sikit. kol 10 ek?! baru bangun.'
yeah, he calls her nabila coz he always confused her name with nad's sis. cait.
anyway, then she was like, 'huh, i wasted my sleeping time for nothing ke?!'
and guess what happened?!
yup, she went back to sleep. haha, bijak la anda sume. X)

around 10.20, en hamid came to pick her up in front of her house.
off she goes to institu mandu cekap!

the lesson started off smoothly as the instructor was beside her for the first round.
the rounds to come, she was supposed to do it alone.
yeah, she was confident at first coz she had done this before and it went by perfectly.
i'm guessing luck was not on her side today.
her car died a lot of times at the same place at the same time.
she frantically restarted the car and drive but it ends up the same way.
dead.
then, when it was 'bukit' testing time, her car also died a lot of times.
i lost count.
but yeah, i feel sorry for her since there was like bazillion people there waiting for her to go down on the other side.
not on the same side.
i feel her pain and embarrassment.
and the instructor was nowhere in sight when the 'tragedies' happened.
poor her.
another 2 instructors had to go and give help.
i'm guessing she wants to curse him but when you're in a pinch, u forgot about it.
huhu.

people might tell you, "sure. everyone had been there", "everyone makes mistakes", "you learn from your mistakes", yada, yada, yada....
but when it involves your face and dignity probably, it is still embarrassing.
please feel my pain first.
comfort me.
then you can say all those things to my face.
okay?!

can you control your lameness?!

so, i'm here to tell you what i really think about love.
it's a four letter word that describes how you feel to a certain someone.
so far i am correct, no?!

L - lame
O - overprotective
V - vine
E - ecstasy

when you like someone, you tend to be lamer than usual.
this is from my observation and i'm guessing a few others.
like for instance, i am lame. (this is a true fact, huhu)
i promised to refrain myself from liking anybody due to the stupid stuff i heard love could do to you.
but then, i like this dude.
when i am around him, i feel giddy just to be near him.
i even felt ecstatic when he pass by me in the cafe.
stupid, but still true.
then, a bunch of my friends encouraged me to go and start talking to him as friends.
i was sooo confident about it that i started to be lamer than usual.
i am not myself and the way i talk changes.
my body language changes.
for the worse, not for the better.
i was told that i was lame by a friend, i tried do deny it.
but when i met the dude again, i'm not myself.
people around me started staring.
ugh, how i wish i could just act naturally around the ones i like and not be so lame with a capital L.
and therefore, i was convinced.

if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, you tend to be overprotective of them.
please don't deny it.
you are scared that he/she will look at other people and not pay any attention to you.
so you restrict them from doing anything that involves the opposite sex.
you get more and more jealous everyday.
you want him/her to only see you in their eyes and don't look at anybody else.
you even scolded them if they are texting someone from the opposite sex.
am i correct?!

love is like a vine.
figuratively speaking.
when you are in a relationship, you are bound by a vine that ties you and your partner up.
some people call it the red thread.
either way, you are tied up with that one person.
okay, i have no idea what else i'm supposed to write here. ;p
so, moving on.....

love is like an ecstasy for your feelings.
it makes you high and it makes you feel like shit.
when you are high, it's like you are in your own world where only you and your partner exists.
but when you are down, that fantasy of yours turns into a never ending nightmare.
love plays with your feelings.
just like the effect of the drug.

after i have pointed these out, i realized that i am not ready for any of this.
my heart, my body and my soul is not ready.
but i kept thinking about what it's like to have a boyfriend, or how nice it would be if i'm married now.
my imagination is driving me crazy!
so, as sane as i am now, i have decided to wait for my turn in love.
don't rush it in your life.
i'm doing the right thing kan?!

this is just from my point of view.
don't take anything serious from this.
but when you are ready to commit to all of this (L.O.V.E), then good luck!
if you are not ready, relax.
that time will come to you soon.
it's a guarantee from God. =]

oh yeah, can anyone answer me, can you control your lameness when love takes over your body, mind and soul?! =]

haha, gile xde kna mngena. ;p

my current addiction too!! XD

i haven't been to nelza's blog for quite a while.
i watched the current addiction videos and i'm hooked too!! XD
two dudes who sang so beautifully but still can make jokes about it with the caption they have put in.
it's hilarious!
it's damn funny!
it's sensational!
ok, i'm going overboard here.
huhu.
so enjoy it!
i know i did! ;)

a promise to someone.

anda rasa anda hot?
oh, semestinyer.............................................. tak. =]

upload gambar kegemaran anda


kenapa anda suka gambar ini?
sbb gamba ni mnyerlah kan keadaan ku yg sgt gedik. no more hiding. ;p

bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
aku tengah boikot pizza ni atas due sebab.
1. pasal israel tu
2. makanan tu sangat menggemokkan aku X(

lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
alphabeat - boyfriend

Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
trying to figure out camne nak buat 'notes' kat facebook tu haa. huhu.

Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dgn nama apa?
bella, bell, bebe. yang comel2 je. haha! XD

Tag lagi 7orang?
1. nadia nasir
2. martape
3. papa radzi yang bosan dok umah
4. myra
5. ain
6. ajaa ibu ku
7. farah nasiha yang hamper abes exam die =]

Siapa nombor 1 kepada anda?
rumate ku dr cfs lagik~~ tp skarang x la. jodoh kitorang akan jumpe x kire kat uia atopon matrix pahang dlu. tp skang klas sume nak same. eh, banyak plak cite nyer. huhu.

Orang nombor 3 ada hubungan dgn sesiapa?
die tengah mengelamun skang. huhu. arap2 dapat la sape2 yang ko nak tu ek radzi?! =]

Kata sesuatu berkenaan pada orang no. 5?
oh, banyak nak cite pasal die ni. tersangat la hot dan menjadik rebutan para lelaki sekarang. sangat cantek gamba2 yang diambil nyer. sangat kreatip. sangat cantek! haha. cam stalker die plak. ;p

Bagaimana dgn nombor 4?
we are family~ haha. sangat rapat dengan no 5 juge. sangat cantek. da bpunyer. sangat kuat! X)

Siapakah orang nombor 2?
rumate dr cfs ku juge~~ =] skang x juge. die ni tersangat kuat and bile die mngurut, pergh!! wa caya sama lu!!! rindu dowh ko mar. saket gile bahu aku skang ni. *hint2* ;p

Pesanan kepada nombor 6?
ajaa, jangan la slalu bekeng2 kat aku. ramai lagik yang ko bole bekeng diluar sane nun. X)

Pendapat anda tentang nombor 7?
hoho, best friend ku yg sangat chirpy~! anda akan non-stop talking kalo ade die ni. memang menceriakan suasane la! sangat disyorkan untuk dibawe ke party ato ape2 gathering. huhu. *promote sket* XP

music matters (tag line from MTV.. huhu)

it's that time again!!!

what time you would be asking?
haha, song suggestions time if course!
but must i warn you, this is for those who have universal ears and doesn't care what genre the song is ;)

Up (Wideboys Remix Edit)
Work
Set Me Off
If This Is Love

Fly
Fly (Remix)
Fan
One
One Minute, One Second
Be

English A'la Carte
Alphabeat - Fascination
Alphabeat - What is Happening?
Alphabeat - Boyfriend
Flo Rida - Right Round
No Doubt - Stand&Deliver
Adam Lambert - Mad World (American Idol)
The Noisettes - Don't Upset the Rhythm
Feist - Mushaboom
Feist - One Evening
The Bird & The Bee - Love Letter to Japan
Radiohead - 15 Step

Korean A'la Carte
Clazziquai Project - Romeo N Juliet
Clazziquai Project - Fill This Night
Clazziquai Project - Flea
Clazziquai Project - Beat in Love
blanc. - Discovery
blanc. - New World
blanc. - New World (Clazziquai Project remix)
SNSD - Gee
Super Junior - SORRY, SORRY
Super Junior - MONSTER
Super Junior - Why I Like You
Super Junior - Club No. 1

a reminder to all; the songs that was listed are mostly techno-ish, dance-ish, and within that genre. don't just judge the title and the artist aite? try listening to it first k? =] and i seriously recommends these songs!!! :D

and there are a lot of other songs that i would like to recommend but i forgot the names. i'll add it up later k? =]

enjoy listening!! :D

orang kate mimpi ptang hanyalah mainan syaitan, tapi mimpi malam macam mane?!

umm, yeah i know i still have one paper left and i have yet to study for it but after i read yaya's post about marriage, i would like to tell all of you about my marriage dream.
no, this isn't my fantasy but what really happened in my dream.
i was quite surprise by it actually.
ok, here goes.

me and my family supposedly went on a vacation to God-knows-where.
but the hotel is like a house.
a REALLY OLD one.
it reeks. it creaks. made out of dying wood.
clearly it's in a bad condition.
but the outside looks like the hilton hotel.
ok, this is not the important part.
moving on.
when you step out of this so-called hotel, your feet will touched the bay(?) of the ocean.
architecturally speaking, that hotel would've gone down the minute it was build.
me, my family and the rest of the people that stayed in the hotel went for a swim.
then comes strong waves and one of my slipper went away with it.
'oh well, i'll just walk barefoot then', i thought.
i realized then that all of my family members has gone up to the room so i was furious with them for leaving me alone.
when i went into the room, i wanted to throw a tantrum but got greeted by a dude that was sitting with my dad.
i just shrug it off since he may be a friend of my dad's and off i go to my 'room'.
few second has passed and my mom brought drinks to the guest.
i took a glance at him and my heart nearly dropped like the bomb that causes pearl harbour.
the person that was sitting in front of my dad is someone i know!!!
and guess what he was doing sitting in front of my dad?
he was asking for a hand in marriage!!!
to me!!
oh and that's not it!
when i heard the news, i instantly went beside him and linked my arm around him!!
why did i do that?!
why-oh-why?! O_O
i NEVER expected that HE of all people would ask me to marry him.
OMG! >_<
that dream still did a playback in my mind.
does this mean something?
or ANYHTING perhaps?!
now, when i see this person, my heart just jumped out of my chest and i got a bit flustered.
why i'm not sure.
i mean it's just a dream.
dreams don't usually come true right?!
it's just a play of the mind right?
right??!!!!!

*the dude's identity is classified due to scandals that might be spread by certain people*

teehee! XP

i feel giddy by the second~
i only have 2 more papers and i'm done with this sem!!
yippee!!!
time flies so fast now...
and i keep getting older by the minute.
dang!!! >_>
but....................
my last paper is on monday so c u guys soon!!!
ttyl~

u know u miss me ;)
xoxo

my peeps! X)

people!
i'm baaaack~~~
hahaha, not entirely laa..
just for a short while...
i'm taking "a break" from books and finals for a while but don't worry...
i will be back on track SOON ;)
just want to update u guys on what has been happening to me these past few weeks..

1. portfolio day for internal and external has finally and officially ended today. hurrah! XD no more drawings!!! hahahaha.. my final project is so-so since the lecturers didn't have that many comments soooo i'm not sure whether it's a bad thing or a good thing... exam is coming up too! T_T wish me luck!! i'm going to need lots of it.. boo! X(

2. someone made some sort of shit to me and two of my friends today and i'm totally PISSED!!! ya hear? P-I-S-S-E-D!!! hopefully that person can come to his/her senses soon or i will plunge my fist to your face. haha, gile gangster. but seriously, something bad will happen soon. beware! >=(

3. i haven't gone back home for 2 weeks!!!! X( and it will be another 2 weeks to complete the finals and that adds up to one month of staying in UIA. damn. T_T i miss my family.... i wanna mmet my bro at his plkn... my mom is going to perak this weekend. damn. (sorry for swearing ajaa)

4. my wisdom tooth is growing rapidly now and it hurts soooo bad!!!!! i can't even eat nor chew properly without having a toothache every 0.1 second. and i had to eat my last resort food: bubor nasi which i profusely refuse to eat due to my lack interest of 'sup'. but it works out in the end. it's not so bad and i might even eat the bubor when my tooth is not aching =]

hmm, i'm guessing that's all for now~ will c u guys again in another 2 weeks!!! ttyl~ muahxx! XP

S*IT

oh, lupe nak btau kome sume.
aku ade 8 ari je lagik nak siap kan drawing n model banglo aku slepas di-reject totally oleh mdm aziah.
cis, kjam sungguh T_T
doa kn kjayaan aku sume!!
dan dengan ini, aku mngucapkan slamat tinggal tok sminggu lbih n aku bakal x jmpe korg d klas buat sminggu~
keh2, ade ati nak skip klas sminggu. ;p
tp kalo da tpakse, tpakse jugak la kn ;)

benci subang.. >=(

sebelum aku mule kan pape, mar n nad tlg jgn trase ek.
xde kna mngena ngan ngan korg k?
hehe :D

cite die gni.
sabtu aku balek n obviously naek tren all the way la kan.
x sangke la pulak tren ke plabuhan klang pown pnoh dlm kol 2 gtu.
so, aku tpakse la potong2 org n penyek2 kan diri dlm tren tuh.
pergh!! pnat gak la.
cam nk pengsan pown ade gak sbb ngantok+pnat+beg brat.
da la xle nak pegang pape.
kena la spread kn kaki.
tambah lagi ade org laen yg lean kat aku.
memang nak ngamok la kan.
tp piki tkot x sempt sampai tok driving class, tpakse la buang rase marah n nak ngamok tuh.
resah glisah gak la.
da la x smayang lagi, mkn pown blom.
prot da bunyik2.
pastu time sampai angkasapuri tu ade la pakcik makcik ngan anak ke cucu die ke xtau la.
pakcik tu masok last so die sbelah aku la kan.
da la pakai ktayap, ble plak nak dkat2 ngan aku cam nak lean gak ke pe.
die da la bole pgang tali or besi yang ade kat ctu.
xpaya la nak lean kat aku.
pastu org da kua, die dpan aku plak.
bontot die......................................
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
bpk gli!!! X(
tahi gile aku rase.

k la, fast forward kan cte.
da kat setia jaya, org mule la nak kua2 kan kat subang jaya tuh.
k fine la, dorg tkot x sempt kua.
x kesah.
tp lek2 r.
sempat kua nyer.
ade sorg sis ni, tkot sgt x sempt kua p tolak aku beb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n guess what happen?
aku jatoh tdudok!!!!
atas beg sorg mamat ensem pulak tuh!!!!
urgh!!!
gile malu!!!
org2 kliling aku pown sume mcm ''ehhhh, eh, eh, eh..!!"
ya allah! gile kna tbal kan muke tahap make up tbal time tuh. X(
da tu aku bangon cpat2 n g masok dlm sket.
JAO drpd mamat ensem yang aku tdudok atas beg die tuh.
adoyai.
ade aje kjadian yang memalukn stiap kali aku naek ktm ni.
pastu, da aku tahan malu sume tuh, mamat ensem tu turun kat shah alam la pulak!!
mak datok.
aku lari kua tros.
haih. -_-;;

so, aku btekad, nak sampai subang next time aku nak dudok atas lantai tros.
xya malu sbb tjatoh atas lantai.
bernas x idea aku? =]

creep out people much?

ok so, on saturday night, i was online and there was a dude/chick added me..
so, i was like "oh, this maybe my friend.. what the heck.. just approve laa.."
and then "she" introduced herself as syaeirah, a friend from myspace...
so, i just go along with all "her" questions until "she" came out with 1 question that struck me like a lightning..
here are the questions that she had asked..

1. dlm gamba kecik tu awak yang mane satu? tudung putih ke tudung itam?
so i answered black...
2. awak ade gamba awak sorg yang bsar sket x?
wtf? what kind of girl would ask me this?
3. awak blaja mane skang?
didn't i already put where i'm studying at myspace?
4. rambot awak paras mane ek?
oooookay, i was seriously spooked by THIS ques...

and so i told "her" that no friend of mine whose name is syaeirah ever used 'awak,saye' with me..
'aku,ko' je..
therefore, throughout the conversation, "she" was like,
awak dok mane?
eh silap.
ko dok mane?

do YOU think that this "syaeirah" is a girl????
hmm, i think not... =/

n den, another one added me the same night and the email was kind of familiar...
so, again approve je la kan...
then, he said where he got my ym is unnecessary and let's just get to know each other..
i told him truthfully that i'm hate this kind of stuff..
ayat sbenar,
umm, sbena nyer aku mlz gile r nak knal2, tny2 dok mane pe sume.. sori laa.. tp serious aku benci gile..
den he "accepted" me as i am (konon nyer) and just talk like we were old friends..
hmm...
weird...

if you guys know or recognize these emails, plz let me know.. =/
so-called-syaeirah = ungu888,
mr mysterious = the_cendol_pulut

what a good weekend!! XD

1. snin cuti sbb maulidur rasul.. soooo, balek laa~~ pe lagi kan... dpt extra cuti seari tok relax bebeh! fufufufu X)

2. mak abah jempot kat kl sentral~! slalu nyer balek smpi shah alam.. phew! xya hadapi kesesakan dan ksardinan ktm.. -_-;;

3. masok je kete, afiq (my lil' bro n bkn big bro.. org slalu confuse sbb die lagi bsar dr aku.. eheh..) bagi satu kotak! ngeh3 :D n u know what that means! my ipod!! muahahahaha!!! meh nk tunjuk sket rupe nyer~ ;p (tiada unsur2 nk mnunjuk kat cni tau.. nak kongsi kbahagiaan je :D)

punyer la susah nyer nk pose kn ipod aku ni.. ni je la tbaek yg bole aku buat.. haha

4. g mid pastu! lame GILE x kua kot~ so, dpt la tgk tmpt org bsosial2... slalu2 nyer bsosial dlm studio je.. n sape je laaa yg dtg studio tuh.. huu.. T_T

5. sampai je uma, aku d greet oleh sling bag yg diberi oleh acu ku! die baru balek dr US weekend lpas n die bg adiah kat sume org.. n i LOVE my gift~ sgt perlu kn nyer.. baru ingt nk g bli satu sbena nyer.. huhuhu... xmo tunjuk gamba di cni sbb tkot korg ckp aku mnunjuk2 plak.. ipod da la.. ;p

6. sbena nyer bende ni da lame tp nk tunjuk gak.. akhir nyer aku da gune payung yang dberi oleh bobobe bbulu~ :Dpnat woo nak amek gamba ni.. malu plak tuh nak posing! hahaha.. time kaseh la kat mar sbb sudi layan karenah aku ;p

7. arini officially aku da stat driving class!!! yippee!! surprisingly x nervous lgsg...!! mungkin sbb baby(ipod) ku brade d sisi kot.. ngah3... tp mmg cun! mati enjin byk kali beb! XD

k la, nak balek uia da ni~
til den..
toodles! ;)

i hate being in the middle :(

k, ni 1st time aku akan tros trang akan prasaan ku.
this blog is regarding radzi's post and the event that is currently happening to 2 of my best friends.

farah and nesh(i'm not going to bleep or cross anyone's name here and i'm not trying to 'bukak aib' sape2. note that).
since you guys are hating each other now, i'm gonna let you know that i don't want to be in any part of this heated argument.
i'm just trying to get good grades, sustain my scholar and live a happy and peaceful life with my friends in uia.
but you guys have just made it harder for me.
org akan tny, bella siding ngan sape ek? farah? nesh?
and the answer will be NO ONE.
after many stories and speculations have been heard, i've come to a conclusion that you're both guilty as charge but in different areas.
ok, korg mesti x phm.
korg due2 bsalah tp dr laen2 aspek.
aku mlz nak trang kan kat cni or kat mane2 la tp dr ape yang aku dgr, mmg korg due salah.
it's VERY VERY VERY hard to judge sbb bile farah cite, it seems like nesh yang mmg salah gile nak mati.
tp bile nesh cite, aku rase farah plak salah gile nak mati.
so, what did i get?
a headache.
aku xnk la prasaan kna pilih kawan and kna piki byk pasal bende ni.
baek aku saket kpale sbb x siap assignment.
bgune gak.
so, aku xmo cite panjang di sini.
the conclusion have been written and hopefully read by you guys.
aku akan kawan korg cam bese.
i will act as if nothing has happened.
if you guys brought it up even just for a while, mmg aku akan jd godzilla.
seriously.
ye, korg mesti tgh piki eh, bella ni pahal? membe sendiri pown xnak back up ke? tu bukan kawan sejati tu.
try to be in my shoes when this happen and let me know how the judging goes aite?
tell me if you can pick a friend when both friends are your BEST friend and both has stories yang mmg bole back up diri sendiri.
post ni bukan nak suro korg benci aku(tp kalo korg benci gak, i understand) but i quit.
i don't want to be the middle person anymore.
i don't want to have two best friends that hate each other.
i just want to have my old best buddies back! X(
is it too much to ask? =/

yippee! XD

haha, i've got a good news that is not worth reading if you don't have the time.
haha, ikot la nak bace ke x. ;p

finally, after a long wait of trial and errors since sem 1, i've finally got myself into uia's internet!!
at first, after the registration, i couldn't get online since uia's wifi is so messed up.
sob even tried to help me.
it was a success but only for a short while.
i was devastated la obviously!
then, jeng3~
last night, after an hour or so, i got a message from my computer somewhere saying that i'm currently online.
couldn't believe my eyes at first but after i tried opening mozilla, it works!
hardi har-har!
suke gile! XD
ok, itu je nak cte.
ngeh3. ;p

2 weeks of pure torture

i'm back!
and yes, i still have a mountain of work to do.
let me list down all the work i have to settle in two weeks time, so you guys can share the pain.

1. UNGS - a review of a topic which we have to search on the net or books. we got 'em early this sem and as usual, we waited until the last minute to do them. and now look at what i got myself into. haih -_-;;

2. history - presentation in 2 weeks and i'm the one who has to do the slides. and i still can't find infos on my part of the presentation. damn it! X( to my group mates, i'm not complaining. seriously :)

3. ESS - an assignment which also due in 2 weeks. well, we always have an assignment every 2 weeks. but i don't even get some of the things we did in the past assignments. just copy paste and presto!

4. BCM - 2 weeks worth of presentation that we have tp present next week! :( plus a report. da la last week lecturer x dtg. at least inform la ade assignment ke ape so we can prepare something at least. haih. -_-;;

5. studio - still designing the bungalow for final project which costs 70% of the grade! X( need to research more since my design is soooo blaaaaaah! >_> the latest crit(short for criticise), my whole space for the kitchen, master bedroom yada2 was rearrange by mdm and now i have to draw it all over again. AND what's worse was that last friday we were suppose to have a crit session and i didn't sleep to finish the drawing. it was postponed to monday because mdm said the other sections(studios) haven;t finished theirs but when i asked them, they did have a crit session. humph! >=( then on monday, it was postponed AGAIN to friday but i can't remember why and i was frustrated coz of lack of sleep. then on friday, we had a talk on safety that morning till 11.30 and of course there was no crit. and you know why i was frustrated then. huu. i'm not sure if we have another crit session on monday but now, i don't give a damn and i'm gonna sleep early on sunday. haha, kidding la. i have to excel this sem on account of my scholarship. if i fail, where am i supposed to get money after this? :(

6. BM - a presentation on 'papan tande' which we went to Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka on wed and the some of the people there are no help. geez, is it so hard to get a 15 minutes interview? but the people at the library was super cool! we want a specific book written by a specific someone, and he came back with a bunch of other books that may help with our research. thanks! and to the pak gads also! THEY were super nice.

i can't remember the other assignment but i'm sure i have more to go. dang it.
dear God, please help me! X(
i can't handle pressure very well and i don't want to go senile after just turning 20.
amin.

oh yeah, here are a few pics i wanted to share with you readers ;)

my first class of photoshoping went well last week :) but still not good enough. oh well, i'm still learning :))

ajaa's one. nicer than mine :'(

haha, this one is super stupid! i went to clean my aunt's house today since she's coming back from the states. i tried to switched on the water and i stepped on this since it was high. this happened. am i that heavy? :( luckily it didn't scrape my legs. wee~

*i'm doing this while watching bourne ultimatum. i didn't know the movie is awesome!! saw the first one around 2 or something but missed the second one since i was at my aunt's house*

shocked to death. literally.

i was supposed to post this before the mlake post but i forgot.

haha.

that happens when you get older. ;p

i'm not trying to brag here but i've just found out my grades for my 1st and 2nd project today.
and i must say that i'm quite surprise with the outcome.
honestly, i was expecting a B- and a C but something else was written there.
i'm not going to post what i got here though.
just wanted to share the shock that i experienced with you guyz.
haha.

so, you guys should imagine what kind of shock it was.

was it a good shock or a bad one?

i'll leave it up to your imagination. ;)

still no time.... damn...

after 2 weeks of "fun" doing projects, i finally got my own free time with my family!!!

we'll be going to mlake right this evening~

weehoo!!

before this, my mom and dad has been travelling to a lot of places bcoz of work but i have to decline, obviously, since the course i'm taking now takes up ALL of my free time.

dang!

i knew that i would be busy but i didn't expect any of this! X(

i tried to sweet talk my parents about changing course but i didn't have the guts.

i mean, it's their dream to have one of their child as an architect.

and i also didn't know what course i'll be taking if i was to change.

dang again!

oh well, i guess i have to endure it until 3rd year.

we'll see if i'm strong enough to continue for the part 2.

til then, toodles!

i'm going to have a hell of a time at mlake!

jgn jelez~

ngah3..! XD

my time is seriously running out :(

due to some circumstances, i can't update my blog once a day like i used to.
even on hols.
so, i apologize beforehand if you guys got bored of waiting for an update.
even on mid-sem break(which was combined together with chinese new year. ces!), i can't update more than 1 post coz i had to go balik kampong to visit my sick granpa.
and now, i only have one hour to get ready to go back to gombak on account of my family's going to PD for hols/work.
wish i could come with them! X(
sorry(x20) ek!


p/s: bape byk post da aku mintak maap neh~ huu~~ lambat laun kna tutop gak blog ni nnt :(
n sorry kpd farah sbb x sempt nak boh cte pasal 'secret recipe' tuh.

pros and cons of turning 20

pros

1. people still throw you a surprise birthday party! :D

this was sooo unexpected! i was fooled the whole way by farah. obviously. so here's the story.

on wednesday night, farah suddenly came to my room and asked me to follow her to OU coz there's a 70% off sale at forever 21 and there's a shirt she loves for only 50bucks. well, since it is chinese new year hols, that would be possible. i told her i will go if we go after my class ends at 3pm. she agreed and that's done.

on thursday, i was supposed to go and get a haircut with skem but she said the person in charge was bz the whole day. so, farah, ain and i went off to OU earlier than expected. upon our arrival, i led farah to forever 21 and search for the clothes that she wanted. unfortunately, we couldn't find the one she wants. heart broken, we went in search for food since farah keeps saying that she's hungry. ain asked us to follow her along to look foro her friend also, so we went with ain's plan first.

little did i know, nad, mar, myra, radzi and nesh were waiting for me where ain's 'friend' was supposed to be. i couldn't grasp the moment at that time and went behing a pillar and cried. i was so touched by the surprise that i was so ashamed of myself thinking they didn't care about my birthday at all. it was kind of embarassing since i rarely cried in front of them. haha. after a while, every bits and pieces were falling into place.

a) there was no shirt that cost 50bucks that farah wanted soo much but there was a 70% off sale. i was the one who ended up buying something from there. -_-;;
b) the person that was supposedly in charge for hair cutting was not busy AT ALL.
c) no wonder hajar was so mad when i told her i wanted to cut my hair before going to OU. she said i can cut it by myself. she actually wanted me to go to OU early.
d) there was so much more but i couldn't remember them. haha. ;p

you guys were great!! i had a blast!! thanks!!! XD
oh yeah, radzi paid for the movie tickets afterwards. thanks banyak2 radzi!!!!! :D
p/s: i didn't get a chance to take the pictures from anyone yet so be patient! huhu.


2. people still give you gifts! :D

1st gift: hand-made card given by my roomate ecah!

2nd gift: hand-made card given by my twin nik nadia izyan! we share the same birthday =]

3rd gift: a cute car-print shirt given by anes and yun!! thx guyz! dtg dr cfs just to celebrate my birthday! love you!! forgot to take a picture of it.. X(

4th gift: very cute shirt given by farah, mar and baloo! time kaseh byk2!! X)

5th gift: hand-made pencil case given by syahirah and peroz~ comel sgt!! and in red! huhu..

6th gift: a cute ipod speaker given by nesh~ thx a lot dude coz i know this cost a fortune!

there's still a few more presents to come but i didn't get it yet. haha. joking. but there is a present from nad but she didn't get a chance to give it to me yet. i'll be waiting nad! ;p and adni promises to do a birthday party for me and skem. i'll be wating for that too! XP

the presents i got this year is a lot more than before. honestly, i thank you all for it! i was seriously touched! X) and i'm sorry for all the whining about you guyz not being able to celebrate my birthday coz of the projects.

cons

1. i'm getting old, obviously.

20 is not a good number for me. i feel sooo old since i'm not in the 'teen' area anymore. although i stilll acted like a teen, it doesn't reflect my age at all. i need to be more mature i guess. :(

2. i tend to forget about my health.

this happened the last night to be exact. i was on my way home with nik nadia izyan when we saw sea of people waiting to get on board on the ktm train. seriously, it was like 3 seas combined into 1! we were squished and stepped on since we're small and people pushed us aside. more over, the train was delayed 2 times!! some of them have waited for the train for 2 hours! imagine that. huh.

when we finally got on board, we were seriously squished men and women. it was disgusting! and there was a dude's butt at my thigh. yucks!! X( anyway, after half of the journey, my face and body started to feel cold and i got a massive headache. everything was kind of a blur. nik was busy talking to 3 other girls and i had to nudge her to pay attention to me. suddenly, everything went blank and all i can remember is people touching my face and asked me to sit down. i was kind of half-concious by the time i sat down.

when we arrived at shah alam station, they said i was still a bit pale so one sister had to help me to walk. it was embarassing though. but i thank nik and the 3 girls on the train that helped me. thanks a lot!!! >_< if they weren't there, i wouldn't have known what would have happened to me. god knows if it were my time to 'go'.

such a bitter experience though. :(

hey ya!

OMG!

it's been a long time since i posted anything!
last year to be exact. haha.
sorry guys!
so anyway, i'm updating what has happened to me so far.

finished with my 1st project,"odd one out"

i was supposed to show a play of colours in this one but i think it didn't stand out that much. :(
it's not that great and i'm kind of disappointed with it. :((
was expecting something nicer and bigger but when i saw the outcome, it was so LITTLE it looks as if it was a play toy for kids.
dang! X(


2nd project is on going right now.
we had to pick an occupation and my group pick batik artist.
we interviewed this dude at waris seni who had a lot of experiences with it.mr aziz ma'as

we asked him all about working space and such and he digress A LOT.
don't get me wrong, it was a pleasure listening to all of his experiences but we talked for 2 hours and we didn't get much.
i thought it was enough but when we presented on friday, my lecturer said that we didn't have enough info.
so, i was disappointed(again) and we had to come up with an idea this monday.
haish.
tension2.

my schedule for next week,
monday = present an idea for the working space
tues-sun = had to finish ess assignment(weather reading), bcm joint assignment, and working space design(model and drawings) -- i don't think the itme will be enough though.

help me somebody!!
i don't think i can bear the load now.. :((
ni yang trase nak tuka kos neh

anyway, i'm off for research~
i'll post some other time aite?
wish me luck for my assignments!! X(