Sunday, April 19, 2009

can you control your lameness?!

so, i'm here to tell you what i really think about love.
it's a four letter word that describes how you feel to a certain someone.
so far i am correct, no?!

L - lame
O - overprotective
V - vine
E - ecstasy

when you like someone, you tend to be lamer than usual.
this is from my observation and i'm guessing a few others.
like for instance, i am lame. (this is a true fact, huhu)
i promised to refrain myself from liking anybody due to the stupid stuff i heard love could do to you.
but then, i like this dude.
when i am around him, i feel giddy just to be near him.
i even felt ecstatic when he pass by me in the cafe.
stupid, but still true.
then, a bunch of my friends encouraged me to go and start talking to him as friends.
i was sooo confident about it that i started to be lamer than usual.
i am not myself and the way i talk changes.
my body language changes.
for the worse, not for the better.
i was told that i was lame by a friend, i tried do deny it.
but when i met the dude again, i'm not myself.
people around me started staring.
ugh, how i wish i could just act naturally around the ones i like and not be so lame with a capital L.
and therefore, i was convinced.

if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, you tend to be overprotective of them.
please don't deny it.
you are scared that he/she will look at other people and not pay any attention to you.
so you restrict them from doing anything that involves the opposite sex.
you get more and more jealous everyday.
you want him/her to only see you in their eyes and don't look at anybody else.
you even scolded them if they are texting someone from the opposite sex.
am i correct?!

love is like a vine.
figuratively speaking.
when you are in a relationship, you are bound by a vine that ties you and your partner up.
some people call it the red thread.
either way, you are tied up with that one person.
okay, i have no idea what else i'm supposed to write here. ;p
so, moving on.....

love is like an ecstasy for your feelings.
it makes you high and it makes you feel like shit.
when you are high, it's like you are in your own world where only you and your partner exists.
but when you are down, that fantasy of yours turns into a never ending nightmare.
love plays with your feelings.
just like the effect of the drug.

after i have pointed these out, i realized that i am not ready for any of this.
my heart, my body and my soul is not ready.
but i kept thinking about what it's like to have a boyfriend, or how nice it would be if i'm married now.
my imagination is driving me crazy!
so, as sane as i am now, i have decided to wait for my turn in love.
don't rush it in your life.
i'm doing the right thing kan?!

this is just from my point of view.
don't take anything serious from this.
but when you are ready to commit to all of this (L.O.V.E), then good luck!
if you are not ready, relax.
that time will come to you soon.
it's a guarantee from God. =]

oh yeah, can anyone answer me, can you control your lameness when love takes over your body, mind and soul?! =]

haha, gile xde kna mngena. ;p

12 comments:

Radzi Tajuddin said...

I can bella :) hahaha

a.j. said...

kawen je -_-''

hahah

Mardhiah said...

n u thought i was the only 1 y tetibe giddy bile msk bab psl guys that i like.
weeeeeek~

kite same je wei
gagagagaaaa~
:P

mindreader said...

well,apparently,what u've said are freakin true...haha...i cant deny that...well,i think the best way if u like sum1 and have feelings for him,its best not to be close friends with him,otherwise,if either one of you confesses,u'll feel kinda awkward being around them because u've been friends with him and tend to accept him as a friend and not more than that...and vice versa...get what i mean?so,try this,play hard to get :P and umm...when u have a conversation with him try to be urself and show him that u r a fun person to be with :D hua3...so much of an advice :P

bella said...

radzi: haha, sile2 explain~ :D

aj: i agree beb!! XD

mar: haha, xkn la ko xtau aku camne..
yeah, we are a two-some.. X)

myra: haha, that's kind of a good advice but i've been playing hard to get for years.. maybe my tactics was wrong.. XP

farah nasiha suhaili said...

fuhh laa..
dr.chenta kot~!
leh jadik psychologist kaw nih.
ngahahaha.
nice one babe!^.~

bella said...

hahaha, dr chenta gapo nyer.. X)
thx anyway... =]

Nik Alya said...

wow. what a nice post. very intriguing. but i mus say i agree with myra on the being-frens-first part. but not so on the playing hard to get. well, its not really playing hard to get, but dun indulge yourself too much. most guys are scared of gals like dat. or so i heard. u shud just be urself and show him that u can handle any circumstances. guys like tough-minded gals, i heard. haha. and oh, giddy is normal. huahua!

ayuni barney comel sangat said...

giddy is normal!! yeye! hahaa

bella said...

haha, but the circumstances are very different for me..
every guy that i like and have tried to be friends with ended up just being friends..
maybe my technique was wrong..
but whatever..
the past is in the past...
thx for the advice though! :D

fannie said...

weh..ko dah boring sgt ke ni??? *hahah..xde kene mengena tol comment aku ni*

bella said...

hahahaha!! XD
manede boring dowh..
tgh2 borak2 ngan org ttbe tpiki plak pasal bende ni..
ape lagi, tulis je la~ XP